Hellooooow, I’m coming back again on blogspot after
a very long hiatus. So tonight (actually I write this in the middle of the
night) I want to share my severe experience in fighting acne and its scar. Actually I should mention
it in plural word because I got a plenty of it, so if I used word acne it
probably wouldn’t describe the reality.
Firstly, I’m not sure when the exact time I got
an acne landed on my face for the first time, but for sure that was the
beginning of me versus myself. Why I called it the phase of me versus myself
because having acnes is completely a struggle, there is a time you felt like
you couldn’t be able to reach the standard of beauty made by people around you.
Yes, we named it society and we all knew they’re so cruel, indeed. You have no
idea how to get rid with those pimples on your face, and you left hating
yourself for being ugly.
I wasn’t older than 13 when I got my first
acne. That was cruel for me or maybe that was pretty unfair for me??? The answer
is YES, it was, it was so freaking unfair. With lack of knowledge, I tried so
many face wash or even skincare which so easy to get them from drugstore. If I’m
not mistaken my very first facewash was Ponds. I tried the one with pink color
as its package. The result was very disappointing me so I moved to Clean &
Clear. At first it was nice and very smooth, it didn’t make my face dry and
stiff but it didn’t help my acne problem. It was frustrating me.
Actually I have tried so many products beside
the two above. I couldn’t mention it one by one because it will be a long
story. Fair and Lovely, JF Sulfur, Hadalabo, Acnes, or even baby’s soap!! All
of them have paid a visit on my face. Fixed, my face was tortured by chemicals.
It would be getting worse, like how easy my face getting an acne. That was very
easy and quick but I have to try million time harder to recover it. I’m done
with that, I have tried to ignore it but it always end up with insecurities
being the winner. To prevent me from being suicidal just because acne problem I
went to a doctor. Seriously dude I have been thinking that way, I didn’t want
to live with acne on my entire life.
Okay forget the suicide part. As I mentioned
before, I went to a doctor. Not a specialist one but only a general
practitioners. Dumb me I failed to remember the doctor’s name, it’s doctor
Manik/Menik/Munik or whatever because I don’t care anymore. Dumb me part 2, she’s
effing a general practitioners not a specialist. If you guys have a problem
with your skin don’t hesitate to go to the specialist. Trust me, don’t waste
your time and money like me because I didn’t get what I want, my skin was not
even getting better. My parents already spent approximately 500K for once visit
and for me that was so priceeeyy if I compare it with my economic condition. After
spending 500K I only got antibiotics and
vitamin. Ugh I’m broke AF!
Then, after three months of medication I still didn’t
get anything worthy. The results were not increasing from the low level aka no
results. So, I decided to stop to go there. I’m not the one who give up easily,
I moved on from my past medication. I chose to get treatment at beauty clinics
or for short dermatologist. I went to Citra Sehat, I brought my confidence and
ready to be fully recovered. This is my first time experiencing facial
treatments. That was totally hurt. TOTALLY HURT GUYSS. I don’t know why every
clinics I have visited always tell me to go back there weekly/monthly in
interval of three months. Been fooled yet still confused.
You all guys really need to know, I have been
experiencing facial, peeling, acupuncture, and all. The result??? Still none
pity me.
After being ingested by advertising wile I can
say that my acnes problem starting to fade away by degrees. BUT, I have to put
an underline to the sentence before. Because why? The scars really made me
sick. I felt like my face had the worst texture ever, the pocked, the redness, the
oil, and all. Fucking sicken me! All I need was my face free from acne, that’s all,
not being kinclong like this if ya know how bungkus gorengan looks like. I
think you all guys could easily guess what I would have done afterwards. Absolutely,
I moved on.
The next destination was Eva Mulia Clinics. First, I only got its
medicine from my neighbour who has same acne problem like me but she already
healed. It went well, and I got the fast result. Almost all of my acnes are
getting calm and fade, it only leaves a redness. But DUMB ME PART 3, I’m not
quite satisfied. I thought I must go to the clinic for meeting the doctor or at
least having a treatment. Sadly, I chose the wrong decision. All those treatments
only broke my face out mercilessly. At the end, I stopped every treatments that
I’ve started. I didn’t want it to get worse. Sad.
After all, my face still full of acnes, I tried
to act like I don’t care anymore (this is sounds bullshit). I want to fight
acnes with continuing my life confidently. But the fact, I failed again for a
million times. My currently skin condition is not even better (it’s getting
worse instead), still get a plenty of acne, dull, oily and blemished, and full
of imperfections.
Sooo guys that’s all my acne story. Last, I want
to say to you all, you’re pretty just the way you are, no matter if you guys
have acnes problem like me or not you’re still pretty. Pretty comes in any looks,
acne is normal, having it doesn’t mean you’re less pretty. Cheer up and we fight
together 😊
